Saturday, September 04, 2004
gosh. i got into this horrible fight with my fucking brother! and i hate it. duh. he is still my brother after all. but i really hate him. grabe nman dba. wasnt it obvious that i got hurt with what he said? prang wla xiang pake. sighs. ang skit nun kung galeng sa kapatid mo yun. and saket paden ng feeling. hangang this evening. it hapend nung afternun. pero after i ate dinner and saw his face, i wantd to vomit. i tried my best to aproach him. make him feel that i love him despite all the things he has done to me. but no. he hates me. he cant stand me. i dont know what i did to him. for him to get mad at me like this. i dont know what mistakes i have committed for him to hate me like this. what did i do kuya? i have so many questions i would want to ask. but unfortunately i couldnt. for i fear that his anger might grow bigger and bigger until he could eat me up. i love him. i want him to know that. i hope he loves me too. because i really do....
sweetieclaire
9:03 PM
Monday, August 30, 2004
sad to say. i was used. by my so called friends in school. its been so miserable for me cause i couldnt express the way i feel about it no matter how hard i try. i could not bear the pain anymore. though i try not to think about it, it still pops out of my mind... damn. but you know what the freaky part is? i still allow them to use me. it just that it makes me smile whenever i know that i get to share whatever i have with them. i male it a point that whatever they ask of me i make sure that i give it to them. its not that sarcastic isnt it? cause am starting to get annoyed, cause i dont know the right thing to do. i mean all my life, i have acted the same way towards my friends. but still i never ever hesitated to give them what they had wanted. i have promised them that i will try my best to be what they expect of me. and so far i have been doing my best. i just hope from all my efforts theyd realize what they are doing to me...
sweetieclaire
7:42 PM
Sunday, August 29, 2004
gosh. i finally got my new site. :) though few people can only read. i still chose to make a new one. i hope those people whom i allow to read will read, will read. hmmm. in this blog i shall reveal deap dark secrets which i have never reveald to anyone. i guess i should not. but still i am. though these stuff are family matters i reveal them to fellow bloggers who i trust with all my heart. i finally found big sisters in the blogging world. they may not seem to care for me. but i surely 100 percent do for them. they have been my blogging "family" and i am happy with them. i finally got what i wanted. sweet. loveing big brothers and sisters. i have gotten intact to most of them, because of their kind words that melt my heart. they have been better than my real family who dont seem to care. they had somehow touched the inner claire. the way they sommunicate with me, it never hapend between me and my family. i love them more than my real family. through thick in thin when i write in my present home, they have helped me with their kind advices. they have melted my heart. in such a manner i could not forget them. to the bloggers, i love you. and thank you fer appreciating me. i care.
sweetieclaire
6:23 PM
